Ive only been here a few hours, but man, what a beautifull place.. this is what England I wanted to experience, the country side. Meeting my older cousin, Athar bhai and his wife and 2 of the most beautiful little girls ive ever seen in my life today for the first time!! what a fantastic day, I was just crying a bit ago while sitting in my room and had to write about it!! hehe

Ill have to post the pics up especially for you Claire!! its amazing, on the road that led up to the house theres no street lights, just lush forest on both sides of the road, with little driveways  on the one side, so coming into their house it looked amazing, nicely trimmed hedges, lush natural trees and greenery all over the place, all while it was a cloudy evening with a light mist hissing down from the skies. 

I left Birmingham this morning at about 9:30am. met a very kool chick on the ride to london, she was going there to purchase some makeup from Harvey Nichols, and then come back. thats like a posh shop or something. and then I coached to Peterborogh from London, then off to Kings Lynn, but the ride from London to Peterborough was fantastic!!! had both seats to myself so I got to sprawl and I actually fell asleep for a good hour or 2wo!!

Got a long day of table tennis, then sight seeing, then squash coming up. so we’ll catch up on that later!

Love you all!!!

Just sitting down with uncle Rahman, right now, he’s so peacfull, I put on this Indian comedy show it’s actually pretty funny I think he likes it, we been having broken conversations here and there. but im soooooo tired right about now also, i think i woke up pretty early and did lots of running around today. im so tired right now i dont wanna move .. but i gotta brush teeth and then pass out somewhere.. had some wild dreams last night.  one i was just sitting down with christine in my bed, just chatting about stuff,  another one was i was being hasseled walkin through an airport terminal or somthing cuz they thought my watter bottle was a bomb or something, but i remember i just ran when they started chasing me or someting like that.. im sure ill be dreaming again soon. its a Full Moon Tonite aswell. i was actually out in the stars earlier on tonite also but not long enough. Oddly enough for some reason , i havent been meditating at all since ive been here.. actually there was 1 night where i did, but never .. maybe the chaotic lifestyles of those around me are starting to get to me abit. lol. which im realizing is even more of a reason to meditate.

And im finally back on track with eating well and stuff, everyone around here eats so much crap !! i cant belive it. like every house i been at, is lined with Sweets and chocolates and that kinda stuff usuaually i dont eat, but for some reason i been pokin away at them slowly, gotta snap out of that .. jhee.  and i need to start exercising much much more.. like only hit 2wice since i been here, goin to athars for the weekend, so gonna be lots of stuff goin on there 4sure. and bringin my raquet to AUS for sure!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it’s gonna be summer there!! heheh x0x00x0x

Man, Everyday just seems to get better and better. I been staying at Fountain road for the past 6 days or so, and man I love it here so much, Samina baji .. what a wonderful person, she was always my favourite as I rememberd as a kid coming here I always used to love it, such a warm and inviting person .. I can see everything. That day spent just walking to shops and waiting while her and Sunnah were trying on Saris.. I was actually tearing a bit just thinking about things, and how happy i was to be around them. Theres so much love in this house.  Im so glad to be part of the love right now, Have been really spending alot of time with Sahir, heh he reminds me of myself so much in some ways and i guess thats how we attract each other. and getting to know more about Minnie, Sunnah and Faraz is coming on too, they’re all such beautifull people!!

I dont remember much about Ikki bhai as a kid, but now I really am getting to know him, getting to know how strong of a person he is, and how wealthy they all are to have one of the most beautiful families ever. Just being here feeling so warm and comfortable, getting to know my neices and nephews .. Also getting to know Dr. Rahman Uncle. one of the foundations of my family, my dad always talked so much about him

I played squash yesterday!!! owowowowowo man i was actually dying to play, like its only been about 1.5 weeks since I last played. but man it was incredible. I defeated 2 players fairly easily when i got warmed up a bit, but regardless just to get out on the court, and hit the ball.. in another country. Legs felt really heavy for the whole session, but that’ll go away in a couple of hits 4sure, i really needed that, just feels so icky when i dont execercise for that long, like i been biking everywhere and went for a jog one day, but not the same!!

Thank you Omar Samad for reminding yourself of what is important. I have literally been crying the past while thinking of how happy i am to see my family again.
I love them so much, and it is the most amazing feeling in the world to be here with them right now. omg im crying so much more!! heheh ive only been home
about 2 days now, i say home but its my home in Birmingham that is, where I was born. and theres still so much more family to see!!!

Fury aunty my favourite aunty!! and her beautifull children, omg they’ve grown so much!! hehe today i only spent an hour playing with Sarah, but omg it was
the most amazing thing in the world!!! she was just showing me some stuff on the computer, and like we played some fun games at bored.com, then we played 2
player mario kart sitting down in my room, and she actually beat me in one race!!! lol i didnt let her win either. so i think i owe her a quid. but she owes
me a treat which im definately gonna cash in on soon. Sarah is the most adorable girl in the world!!!  i still remember her when she was a baby, and she would
bite me and scratch my face lol!! and Zainah too! omg they are the most gorgeous girls evar!

also i talked to bunny hala today!!! my other favourite aunty!! heheh omg i CANT WAIT TO SEE HER! OIMG AND HUSSAN TOO!!1 hehe he picked up the fone. wow
just thinkining about htem makes tears just stream down!!! but yeah, i was so happy to talk to him only for a few moments tho im gonna see them 2morrow.
Talked to bunny hala for a while after that, and wow!! hehe can’t wait to see them!!

so i havent had a hit yet. omg im dying to have one actually. i sent some emails around so hopefully within a couple days ill get some sorted out. but on another
note athar my cousin that plays squash has invited me over for the next weekend coming up so i’ll be going there, which is a 3h train ride from here, and
he lives right outside Camebridge on the coast. So i can’t wait to swim in the sea, and also play squash and table tennis with him!! man im really dying to have
a hit. i got a bike so 2morrow i’ll be biking around lots.

Arquam, what a nice young man hes become. and it’s really lucky that hes on holidays now because spending the time with him, just chatting doing simple little
things is honestly the most important thing in the world right now.

im sleeping in his bed right now. although hes not here with us, hes with us everyday in our hearts. The life and the legend of a warrior will forever
be ingrained within my heart.

My heart is filled with love for everything and everyone around me, and will always be my guide in life. hehehe im so fukkin happy about everything
and everyday keeps just getting better and better. UN BELIEVABLE!!!

–
Omar Samad

OMFG .. what a night. im still high off that vibe. the home of dnb, i always read up about it, and seen pics, and heard the sets. but this time i FINALLY get to live it up. jheee. was even more than i had expected it to be 4real. So I had been out in London doin my thing all day, got back to my pad at like 7ish, then took a nap, remember waking up at 22:22, which was lucky so i could still ride the tubes on my pass. so hoped into my gear and out the door.

so like it was a 3 room setup, main stage was hip hop coming in, and it was about 0:30 last i checked, and already i was like wow starting to get pretty packed up here. so i started chattin up some ppl and gettin a feel of the crowd abit, wikkid crowd btw. and i actually felt like having a pint or 2, stepped into the bar area, and omg its dcode, this one dnb dj i been chattin with online, and i was just like .. dood is that you , and he was like YAH Man! so we ended up stayin at the bar for a bit.. heh and actually sorted out a great location to chill at in the club vip. so it was awesome, and the dnb started up with a pendulum set at about 2ish, and omfg .. it was just insane everything about it, like everyone was feelin it, this was like no party ever before, and i still draw so much attention to me here even!! lol breakin out all my *original ol skool raving moves, felt so amazing!! being in circles .. and laughing with ppl man wikkid wikkid times!! hehe, so it just got even darker when andy c + gq stepped up after. dropped a 3h set, to end up at like 6ix, but man, andy c… respekt broth bringin the ol skool flavor big time, i know i might be stuck up on that 2000 era .. but all the djs know, that that was the ultimate!! and those of u that know aswell. like the new stuff is all good but it was the olskool that set the standard.

man after the night, was just walkin out, and i stopped in front of this sandwhich store ‘are you aright’ i looked down, and saw her, man she had the most amazing eyes ive ever seen!! so we talked a bit, and i went in to get something to eat, and sat down right beside her, and her friends, and started telling them about myself, but man the whole time i was still mesmorized by her sooo pretty! heh so i gave her half my sandwhich and we just talked more and more. so we swapped contact details, and hopefully i’ll hear from her soon!!!! cuz she promised me she’ll go out with me

so by this time the tubes were open and we got on it and i eventualy ended up home at about 8ish, which was great! reminded me of the dayz0r. hehehe

Couldnt sleep on the plane at all, so there goes my nights sleep right, anyways the immigration line at Gatwick was insane!! so i was kinda making my way back to the end to jump in, and omg i hear someone calling my name, it was Ruth-Anne!! omg thanks for saving my life which saved me from like a 2hour line. lol. and then hit up the train to victoria, then from there had to tube it down to Shepards Bush. which was like a trip too, especially with my 2 suitcases, but wasnt that bad, just annoying when switchin lines.
ok, just woke up a while ago, funny night that was woke up like around that time aswell and saw this dood out the window. total nutter.
been doin the same obsessive compulsive things over and over, its like hes trapped in a loop.

anyways gonna get cleaned up a bit, and then head out to town, first stop gonna be the internet cafe check some mail and look up a squash club,
then check out the town abit see if i can get a trip down to see stone hendge one of these days while im still in london. i saw a day trip thing
for 30 quid the other day, so we’ll see if we can sort that out.

to be honest the only thing that bothers me about stayin here with them, is the smoke, makes me feel icky.

Been an intersting buzz so far, and just getting started!!

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Please watch this, I have been literally crying during and after watching this. I really am passionate about what is important to me in life, and when it comes to the earth .. and how we’re treating it, how we treat ourselves. we really are living in a world of self-deception. Most people have no idea why they do things, why they gravitate towards people, why they find themselves purchasing designer labels, purchasing other goods.. we really need very little , but people are unconciously wanting more and more.

Watching that video has really re-kindled a passion within me to take care of the earth, I am a firm beliver that although being only 1 person I can make a difference in the world. I can apply my conciousness and help shape people into becoming concious their selves, the ripple of positive energy that will eminate .. creates the awareness that we have a responsibility to protecting the earth, people are in this world of self-deception that everything is alright. but really it’s getting worse and worse, the time to act is now. and I hope that if you read this you start right now!! The first step is awareness, breaking the unconcious barrier that societies have imposed on us and free your mind.